Great Heart was my theme of last year. And it
wasn’t until June that I was reminded of the fact that for all of my trying,
God is the one who gives me a great heart.
Psalm 119:32 says, “I will run in the path of your commands when you
enlarge my heart!” What a freeing
thought!
As
I sat on my porch, drinking my tea and reading back through my journal this
afternoon, I realized that God has expanded on this theme of “Great Heart” throughout
this school year. This year, He has repeatedly
to told me to sing.
“You
turned my wailing into dancing, you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with
joy, that my heart may sing to you
and not be silent. O LORD my
God, I will give you thanks forever.”
Psalm 30:11-12
It
started back in July, when I read about the cantus
firmus. I had just gotten through
sharing with friends some of my favorite Latin phrases (carpe diem, carpe aeternitatem,
coram deo…) and this appeared in my
inbox as the daily Slice of Infinity from RZIM.
A new Latin phrase! Woot! :)
Here
a few direct quotes from what Jill Carattini said:
·
The cantus
firmus, which means
"fixed song," is a pre-existing melody that forms the
basis of a polyphonic composition. Though the song introduces twists in pitch
and style, counterpoint and refrain, the cantus
firmus is the
enduring melody not always in the forefront, but always playing somewhere within
the composition.
·
"God wants us to love him eternally with our
whole hearts, not in such a way as to injure or weaken earthly life, but to
provide a kind of cantus firmus to which the
other melodies of life provide the counterpoint... Where the cantus firmus is clear and plain, the counterpoint can be developed
to its limits." (Dietrich Bonhoeffer, Letters & Papers from Prison, p. 303)
·
For
Dietrich Bonhoeffer, life was a great work of sounds and symphonic directions,
and the cantus firmus was the
essence, the soul of the concerto.
Ooh. So good.
I love that musical analogy even thought I am not a trained musician by
any stretch of the imagination.
***Dietrich
Bonhoeffer wrote many books, but was able to use music as an analogy to the
Christian life because he knew it well.
At one point it was thought that he would become a professional musician
because of his skill at playing the piano.***
After
reading Bonhoeffer’s words, in my journal I pondered: “In a great heart – what is
the heart’s song?”
Is
my heart singing a cantus firmus on
which to base my whole life around?
And
how do I get a good cantus firmus?
As
I continued to read my journal, I saw God repeatedly reminding me that the way
to a Great Heart and a beautiful cantus
firmus is time in His Word, discovering more about His character.
I
recently read more about two women who allowed their knowledge of God to come
out in beautiful expressions of worship:
1. Fanny
Crosby was born in 1820 with sight, but
her eyes were blinded in infancy after a well-meaning doctor mistreated an eye
infection. She had limited physical
vision but was blessed with incredible spiritual insight. Part of that insight came from the work of her
grandmother, Eunice, and Mrs. Hawley, the Crosby’s landlady. Both women were committed to helping Fanny
memorize the Bible as they read verses to her and reviewed chapters. With their help Fanny memorized the
Pentateuch (Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, Deuteronomy), the four Gospels,
most of the Psalms, all of Proverbs and other portions of the Bible. No wonder she could write more than 8,000
hymns in her 95 years! What she filled
up with flowed out of her heart. For
example:
I think of my blessed Redeemer,
I think of Him all the day long:
I sing, for I cannot be silent;
His love is the theme of my song.
I think of Him all the day long:
I sing, for I cannot be silent;
His love is the theme of my song.
Redeemed, redeemed,
Redeemed by the blood of the Lamb;
Redeemed, redeemed,
His child and forever I am.
Redeemed by the blood of the Lamb;
Redeemed, redeemed,
His child and forever I am.
I know I shall see in His beauty
The King in whose law I delight;
Who lovingly guardeth my footsteps,
And giveth me songs in the night.
The King in whose law I delight;
Who lovingly guardeth my footsteps,
And giveth me songs in the night.
2. Catherine
of Siena was
born in Italy in 1347, and although she only lived for 33 years, she dictated
380 letters, 26 prayers and 4 treatises.
Yet again, a Slice of Infinity from Jill Carattini in October made my
mind think on this more:
a. “In Catherine’s prayers, the
editor notes, ‘Her theology becomes
her doxology.’ Namely, what
Catherine professed to be true about God became in her prayers – and arguably
in her life – an expression of praise to God.
It struck me as a beautiful notion – what we know of God being something that moves us to sing to God. And then I was quieted by a thought:
Shouldn’t all theology naturally lead us to doxology?”
b. “What do you know about
God? What have you seen of God’s
character and known of God’s goodness?
Might this theology become a song worth singing. In your knowledge of God and in your knowing
of Christ, might you find in word and deed, in prayer and song, your life a
doxology to the goodness of a Creator who wants to be known.”
Both
Fanny and Catherine allowed what they knew of God to be displayed in their
lives. Their theology became doxology…and
an offering of praise to their great God.
Is
my heart so filled with Christ that like Fanny Crosby I can say, “I sing for I
cannot be silent, His love is the theme of my song”?
He
is The Cantus Firmus.
He
is the fixed song.
And
only when He is the enduring melody of my heart can all of the other melodies find
their proper place.
“Ever
since you rescued me,
You
gave my heart a song to sing
I’m
living for the world to see
Nobody
but Jesus.”
– Casting Crowns/Matthew West